i love free time.

reason #463 to move out of this house:

"There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it."

Oscar Wilde

well, this weekend was by far one of the best in my life. we made it to the show! actually, we got there pretty late, but by some miracle, Si*Sé didn't even go on until about 11:30ish, so we lucked out. i must have had some kind of angel watching over me, because not only did i get to see them play, but i got to talk with Carol C. and Jeannie in the bathroom while they were getting ready for the show! she even remembered me from the last show! her exact words were, "of course i remember you! you're my favorite!"
their performance was amAzing, as to be expected. even my friend Christina who seemed a bit aprehensive about seeing a relatively unknown band fell in love with them.
so, here it is - probably the happiest i've been since...ever:

pleasepleasepleaseplspleasepleaseplseplesaplseplseplseplweaesplesaplsseapleaselepsleplesaplesaslplseaplesapleaseplesaspleasepleaselpleaseplpleaseplesapleaseplsaepleasepleaseplessspleasepleaspleasepoleasepleasepleaseplsepleasepuleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzz let us get there in time!

wouldn't it be nice if whether or not you could acheive something depended solely on how much you actually wanted it?

i keep hoping certain things will happen - religiously - obsessively...planning them out in my head...what a waste of time.

Poll #25083 when i grow up
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what is your dream job?

aaack! i must go to this!
anyone want to make a trip out to california?


ugh...too bad i only have 200$ in my bank account.

Poll #16440 paradiso
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In what city/state/country/region would you most like to reside?

back to the real world. actually, the people and places i visited during my winter vacation seemed to come a lot closer to fitting my definition of the 'real world' than rockville, maryland ever has.
anyways, classes start next week. the idea of school is not nearly as menacing as it used to be. i'm excited to get my hands wet in certain subjects again, and i'm especially looking forward to my tuesday night party class with rae! maybe abi! and possibly even gordo? shveet...

took tons of pix on my trip. here's a few:

Hola hola, for those of you who still read my journal, I am in Arequipa, Peru! I´m sure most of you have heard about the firework explosion in Lima. We went to a mass in the square where it happened just a few days ago. Pretty scary. This has been an incredible experience for me. It is my first time out of the States, and boy is it another world down here. For one, it´s HOT! I spent New Years in Mejia (a beach nearby) and danced all night long! We spend the days shopping (as everything is ridiculously cheap down here!) or on the beach. Everyone makes fun of me because I´m so pale and calls me Blanca, but i´m working on a nice, toasty sunburn at the moment.
I do miss mi casa. Although this has been a great vacation, I´m starting to get anxious. already. My worries are quite simple, really. Leave it to me to find useless shit to worry about in the middle of paradise. Well, it´s not exactly paradise down here. In fact, when we first arrived in Lima, we were practically attacked by homeless children. They come running up to your car in the middle of traffic begging for money. Paola is quite fortunate. Her grandfather is actually famous in this area, so, she´s got a great living situation.
Well, this is just a blah blah update...I guess i´ll update more when I get back. Hope all is well with everyone. Paz.

Poll #13531 aogg
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which would you rather be?

i'm full of anger and resentment. don't know what to do with 'em. i think i should get some wood and an axe and start to chop. whenever i feel my face getting red and my heart racing - that's what i imgagine myself doing. choppin' wood. swinging the axe with so much strength that when the blade splits the wood, the lower half of my body recoils into the air. then i flip around and fly and stuff. it seems pretty fun.

so, my pop is still not home. all of a sudden everyone wants to talk to him. when i tell them he's not here, they exclaim, "he's still not back!?" a lot of them sound more sarcastic than sympathetic. not that they should be either of the two.

wella, i should get back to work. one more week to do all this shiznits. can get it done?

possibly, maybe

i feel like a million bucks right now. life is good if only for this brief intermission between classes. i got an A+ on my Grendel paper! and the prof says he wants a copy of it to share with future classes. yee-haw. papa's still in icu but i think he's getting better as he now has the ability to berate my mother for buying him an inexpensive boom-box so he no longer has to sit in silence.
after studying for math, g came over and we started 'amores perros' again. i dunno what it is about that movie - i know a lot of people thought it was dreadfully long and undeserving of its praise, but i could watch it over and over.
i really do dig this weather.

okay, this is a pretty morbid poll - but, i've been thinking a lot about death lately, so, here goes:

Poll #11452 on death and dying
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What do you fear more: living or dying?

Care to elaborate?

Do you believe in life after death?

If no, what exactly do you think happens when we perish?

What, if anything, will be the death of you?

other?

If you had to choose, would you die this very instant or live forever?

thanks for your participation:>

so i made a poll. i love the polls.

Poll #10974 uno
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In any given day, what do you spend your time thinking about the most?

If other, what?

i don't know why we're embarrassed to cry in public. as crying is cathartic, i'd imagine it could be compared to the release of sexual tension/energy during intercourse. it feels so fucking good. and what's the first thing that usually happens when you start to cry around other people? someone hugs you. hugs work wonders. pride is poop. conceite is the devil. björk is a goddess.
sleep to dream and you'll never feel rested.

mm..what else can i say? estoy alegre:>

...where do i begin, let's see...

last night was si*sé. no question, the best show i've ever been to. these guys were phenomenal. full of energy and passion - not to mention talent. everyone got so into their instrument and just rocked out. they fit exceptioinally well together. carol c's vocals were flawless. so smooth and sexy. and she danced the whole time, as did i, which i have a feeling embarrassed mat, but, what can i say...i was super happy. i was beaming. i don't think my body has ever had that many happy juices flowing through it all at once:> i will never forget last nite.

to top off the incredible performance, i actually got to meet carol c! she was standing at the side of the stage and i sorta caught her attention and she asks, 'oh, did you want something of david's (-david byrne from talking heads who was the headliner and signed them on his label-) ? and i was like, "no,nono! i just want you!" hehe..i was so flustered and babbling about how much i love her band and i must have sounded like such a teeny-bopper and she seemed so suprised i'd even heard of them! man, if she only knew how much i listened to them..we both started giggling and she gave me a hug and woooh! pure delite.
it's funny - the things i get excited about. the things that'll make me happy. they're really not too much, i don't think. which is good. see, just the thought of that makes me happy.